Reshaping Your Life

I was on my LinkedIn page and came across a former co-worker.  And throughout the years it seems she has progressed a little more than I have in her nursing career.  Not to compare our lives because we are on opposite ends of the spectrum when it comes to being social (extroverted tendencies) and values & lifestyle.  But from the outside looking in she has the married life & kids with a propelling career, and I’m still on a journey of trying to find job fulfillment and personal fulfillment. Don’t get me wrong it’s not like I believe the grass is greener on the other side because everyone has their struggles. To her character I remember her as a person who ALWAYS seemed to know where her life should go from getting married to the next job position, she wanted to tackle.  Like they say when you manifest the vision the universe will make sure it comes true, and seemingly that’s what she did.  But for me I just wanted my nursing path to end at being a Nurse Practitioner, that was my goal, that was end game.   But if someone asked me WHY? I honestly couldn’t tell them.  Was it because I knew from the time I was a child? Was there a life changing experience that motivated me? or Did I come to an epiphany one day that this is the best way to serve others?   The answer to all that is a simple no.  See, I always followed the road I was expected to follow, not because I believed I have this God given talent or skill but because that’s what was expected of me.  We are “trained” to go to school, make it to college (we’ll talk about racking up student loan debt another time) and get a job/career.  I did that, via an extremely long route of nursing degrees and I’m still seeking the better part of it all.  It took me a long time to recognize that happiness and dreams don’t lie in the beliefs of others and truthfully, I don’t have the blueprint for that either.  I just know that I need to step out on faith and exercise a “better now than never” attitude to most of the things that lay in wait, so the momentum of evolution can begin; I mean isn’t that life is supposed to be about-constant change? I think the first step to regaining control and perspective over my future is being able to step out the proverbial box and get comfortable with being uncomfortable.  The thought of it literally makes me itchy, but I guess that’s what Rośe is for, LOL.

So, what in your life has led you to feel like you needed to take more control of your life/future?

XOXO,

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